I don’t usually report two days in a row, but I wanted to share how my problems that I shared yesterday were so lovingly cared for by my husband and God. Mark comes home early from work a few days a week, and yesterday was one of those days. He came home after I had written my post, and was surprised to find me not feeling well and very tired. After reading my devotion for today, I’m reminded that God has told us not to worry (like I was yesterday), because Jesus is there waiting to provide what we need just when we need it.

Mark came home and we talked about my problems that morning, and he immediately started doing things around the house to help me! He worked on our laundry which I wasn’t able to do in the morning, and he started cleaning up the kitchen and working on supper. He even went to the store to buy some meat to fix for dinner. In the past, before we owned the store, this behavior would have been normal for Mark when he came home every day, but since he’s been at the store working around 11 hours a day, these things have been my responsibility. I was so blessed by his outpouring of love and actions to help me cope with the chores of the house, that I wanted to cry.

God reminded me this morning in Matthew 10:16-20 that I need to completely trust Him with my life and health, every moment. By bringing Mark home willing to jump in and show his love, I didn’t have to worry and had all I needed to make it through the day. By evening, I was feeling better and enjoyed the time that Mark and I had to spend together.

The two most important relationships in my life–Mark and God– both reminded me just how much they love me when I needed it most. WOW.

Don’t ever give up or let worry and depression get you down. Read these verses in Matthew and remember that you have all that you need just when you need it. What an awesome thing to know.

I’m having a great and productive day today, and I feel awesome!

Sandy

I’ve been having some strange days lately. I had a PET scan on Monday, and we saw Dr. Aggarwal on Tuesday for the results. She reported the great news that most of my tumors look smaller, except in a few areas! Since I’ve been pretty nauseous lately, she gave me the option of changing treatment to a pill form of chemo that I tried before. The name of the drug it Tykerb, and I would be taking 4-5 pills per day with the Herceptin still given every three weeks through my port. Mark and I decided to try this drug for a while to give me a break from the weekly chemo. I’ve been having so many days where I throw up what I eat, and I’m really tired, so I hope this break from the chemo helps me feel better.

Please pray for my strength and motivation. I’ve been struggling with getting up every day and doing even the most routine things. I’m not sure where this is coming from, except that Mark and I decided to ask Dr. Aggarwal if we could try lowering my dose of the narcotic patches that I wear every day for pain. She agreed that we could try this since I’m not really in pain any more, so I’ve just started lowering the dose. I think this must have some effect on my mood and energy level. Nothing else seems to be different right now. Hopefully the effects of changing the dose will level off soon, and I’ll feel better. This is yucky and frustrating right now.

Sorry for the negative tone in my writing today, but this battle is wearing me and my family down. We all need your prayers and encouragement to keep fighting every day. Thanks for continuing to share your love with us.

Struggling,

Sandy