Our family had a wonderful Thanksgiving at my mom’s house, but we missed Thanksgiving with Mark’s family because I was sick all day yesterday. I threw up several times in the morning and felt terrible all day. Mark knows that I’m really not feeling well when I don’t even touch the laundry machines if I’m home! It was a day on the couch watching sappy holiday movies for me…yuk. I needed extra pain medicine to make it through the day, too, so I called the doctor today and will hear from her tomorrow.
Mark and I don’t ever give up hope that I’ll be cured of cancer and completely heal, but we both wonder and worry about how things will change when the doctor tells me I won’t win the next battle. I’m not sure if anyone can understand this feeling of dread, but it reappears every time something is wrong. We have put my cancer into God’s hands, and we still have complete faith in Him, but I’m being honest about this dread. The pain that I’ve been having hasn’t been explained and now seems to be getting worse, so we’re back here again.
The girls and I will be in the holiday program at Church this Sunday night. It’s called the Hanging of the Greens, and we love participating in such a beautiful event. The girls will be angels for their first time, and I’ll be a reader. My task is very simple and allows me to sit through the program and not attend very many rehearsals. It is fun!
I pray that your holiday season is blessed in a very special way. Thanks for keeping us in your constant prayers and thoughts.
Sandy
Sandy, In Psalms it tells us “The Lord is with us; He is my helper; I will not be afraid” and “when pushed back and about to fall, He will help us, for the Lord is my strength and my song; He has become my salvation.” Praise His name…He never leaves us. In times of dread I pray that you will feel His presence there with you and He will lift your chin and look you in the eyes and tell you He loves you and that everything is going to be ok. He loves you Sandy and I am so glad for all He has done and all He has yet to do. ~~Praying for you hon. We love ya! Melissa Stech and kids